It has been an interesting past few days for Giants star WR Odell Beckham Jr.
First, his controversial ESPN interview comments ended up with Beckham having to apologize to his teammates while also getting fined. Then, during a bad home loss to the Eagles, Beckham's frustrations were showcased on the sideline yet again as he banged his head into a cooling fan.
So, in the latest edition of his UNINTERRUPTED Facebook series "I AM MORE: OBJ," Beckham sat down for an interview to address all that has happened in the past week. And this is how the video started.
"Bro, I'm sorry that I'm not gonna apologize from my heart," Beckham said. "I don't feel like you deserve an apology for one, and I don't feel like it's necessary for me to apologize for how I feel."
What Beckham is referring to here is unknown, but continues by reflecting on the ESPN interview, saying he feels bad that others on his team had to answer questions about it.
"If I feel bad for anything, I feel bad for one that people have to answer questions about it and not knowing my true intention or where my heart is in the message," Beckham said. "I feel bad that the message was -- I won't even put it on someone else, not taken wrongly -- but the message was perceived wrong."
It is no secret Beckham is frustrated -- like the rest of the Giants -- for how the season has begun. He has been outspoken about it, though, which is something he feels he shouldn't be scrutinized for.
"If I'm not allowed to put my foot down and say I'm tired of losing, that's tough for me to deal with, bro," Beckham explained. "Like, I'm having a hard time dealing with that."
All Beckham has known recently is losing, with the exception of the Giants' Week 3 victory over the Texans. And last season, he was forced to watch while rehabbing his fractured ankle.
As he mentions, Beckham put a lot of hard work into getting back to his normal, play-making self for this season, which makes "being mediocre" that much harder.
"Like I really went hard this offseason to repair myself -- mind body and soul -- and put me back together, to be able to come here and do what?" he questioned. "Do the same thing that I was just doing? No. I worked way too hard to just even be able to play football again. I'm not gonna be OK with being mediocre. I'm not gonna be OK with being average."
Beckham proved that he was in it for the long haul, signing a five-year extension with the Giants before the season began. He reminded all Giants fans that he did it not knowing the plans co-owner John Mara and GM Dave Gettleman had for the organization.
He strictly signed the dotted line to show his loyalty to the city he hopes to bring a championship to.
"And as long as I'm here -- which I signed a deal to be here for five years, not knowing the future of the organization, not knowing a new GM, a new coach, what direction that they're going to be going in -- I signed it as an oath of loyalty to New York, ya know?" Beckham said. "There's no place better to win than here. There's nothing more I want to do than bring championships to this place."
Of course, a championship is the least of the Giants' worries at the moment. Somehow they are going to try and right the ship after falling to a dismal 1-5 after Thursday night's loss. But Beckham is staying optimistic, knowing the Giants do have the talent to "pull it together and still make a run."
And that's the kind of tone he wanted his ESPN interview to have: That everyone should pick it up and believe things can turn around before it really is too late.
"I think when you look back on anything and there's things that are conflicting or things that get mixed up, you always look back and be like it could have been handled a different way," he said. "I know it may have came off however it came off, but my message was to be nothing more than encouraging, everybody to be their very best, to pick it up even more than you have, to dedicate and sacrifice more than you ever have.
"And if anything could be taken from this message, to me in my eyes is that I actually care. I really just deep down and to my core, my soul, care about what I'm doing."