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Derrick Rose believes his decision to go AWOL before a game with the Knicks in 2017 has hurt his reputation - and his earnings potential.
"MY SEASON IN NEW YORK WAS TOUGH, and I know how I fu--ed up by going home that one time without telling anyone first. That's on me. It's one of the reasons I've had to take these minimum contracts. I know what some teams think about me because of that," Rose wrote in his book, "I'll Show You," coauthored by Sam Smith, according to an excerpt obtained by SNY.
After his lone season in New York, Rose signed a minimum contract with the Minnesota Timberwolves.
"I knew I had to accept the minimum, even after all that talk about max contracts, because I put myself in that situation," Rose wrote. "I was the one who left New York like that. Even going to Minnesota in summer 2018, it's because of the way I left New York; maybe there were people who didn't believe in me."
Rose, who signed a two-year, $15 million deal with the Detroit Pistons after a strong year in Minnesota, discussed his decision to go AWOL on the Knicks in detail in his book. In the hours after he left the team prior to a January 2017 home game, people around the Knicks couldn't get in touch with Rose. Some around the team thought that Rose was contemplating retirement, which the former MVP confirmed in the book.
"I just needed to go home. I went to the crib with my mom. Everybody came over to the house to talk."
That's the first time, one of the few times, where we sat down as a whole family and had a serious discussion like that. I had decided I was done playing," Rose wrote, according to an excerpt of the book published by the New York Post.
"I saw the same thing that was happening with the Bulls was going on with New York. I could tell that the season wasn't going to be the season everyone thought, that I thought. I didn't know if I wanted to hoop anymore. Especially when it started to feel like a business. Of course, you know it's a business. They always say that. But you know it's also hoopin'. But it had started to feel like all business, no joy. That's when I wanted out. I wasn't having fun."
Rose discusses several Knicks topics in the book, including why the team failed to meet expectations. He also shared his thoughts on Phil Jackson, why he feels the triangle offense hurt the team, current Knicks team president Steve Mills and other subjects.
Despite all of the losing and off-court drama during his lone season in New York, Rose writes that he found value in his experience with the Knicks.
"I look at my time in New York as a blessing in disguise," Rose writes. "It allowed me to learn how to be the third option playing with Porzingis and Melo, figure out how to affect the game in my own way. I played in the triangle and I still got my average, 18 per game in the triangle being a third option.
"Doesn't that say something? The old me, I would have been pissed off at the GM and feeling down about everybody there. But I learned something there. I learned how to float through a game and still affect it in my own way. That's a big thing. It's maturity and time, growing up, trying to figure out who I am as a man."
This excerpt from "I'll Show You," by Derrick Rose and Sam Smith, is presented with permission from Triumph Books. To order a copy please visit www.triumphbooks.com/illshowyou.